Letra de Coolidge - Descendents

I'm not a cool guy anymore, as if I ever was before
I took a look at all the signs, then rolled it over in my mind
The feelings I could not release
Became a bitter part of me

What was I thinking of?
It couldn't stay the way it was
Looked at my reflection and I saw a stranger's face
I saw where I was going and I had to walk away

I lost a girl, it's just as well, she tried to save me from myself
I've still got her on my mind, tossing and turning in my bed
But if she had stayed another week
I would have dragged her down with me

She took it 'til she had enough
Was that what I thought love was?
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I told her "see you later" but it's hard to see at all
At the bottom of the barrel with your back against the wall

I'm not a cool guy anymore, left it behind and closed the door
I know you can't escape the past, now I look back and have to laugh
I was my worst enemy
It almost got the best of me

What was I thinking of?
It couldn't stay the way it was
I looked up one day and saw that it was up to me
You can only be a victim if you admit defeat

Well, I looked up one day and saw that it was up to me
You can only be a victim if you admit defeat